Can I stay ?

I just read a quote, I don't know, but suddenly my mind end up in another quote that people always said: "Boyfriend comes and goes, but best friend stay forever". Hmmm..... really??? Can boyfriend stay forever just like best friend did? Or there is always limit time of a relationship, that someday it WILL, and it a MUST break up someday??

well, hell yeah, limit time? a relationship had a limit time???, just like food huh? expired time. When it's the time of expired time, we can't feel anything anymore, just some toxic if you keep pushing to move on. But still...... I just wanna know, How to kill this expired time? Can I eat it although it's been change into toxic anyway, and I know I will die if I still wanna eat it. Can I?

Why just best friend can stay forever with you? Can I stay too? why do I have limit time with you? while I have set up on my mind that you're have no limit time on my life. Limit time, expired, toxic, can I just heal them all ?

Or maybe I gotta think in another way....hmmm.... if your best friends are the only one who can stay forever with you, how about me? Can I be your best friend ? Is the position of girlfriend different with best friends? So what can I do to stay with you? Should I end this, break it up, then just being your best friend? cause you know girl friend don't stay forever, huh?

Then, what is love anyway? can love make you stay forever? No? really? So love is NOTHING ? So, love is such a waste time? so the only love just from best friends?........

then.....then I've decided, I'll marry my best friend.

The Way You Look At Me

Hi guys, it’s been a long time since my last post. I’ve been so busy lately. But actually, so many AWESOME stories I got to tell you. But take it slow. I’ll tell you all latter…

The way you look at me…
Don’t ever think that the story will be a romantic story. Don’t ever think this story will melt your heart. This is not a love story. This is not the story about a sweet boy who met a cute girl. Nope! This story is so far away from what you think, and what you can imagine. This is the story about me when I met hmmmm………. How to say it……hmmmm…….his name is……..Locky. Want to know who is Locky ? You’ll catch up latter in this story. Get ready for it, and Here we go!....

This story was begin at Sunday afternoon when I felt very sad about something. Something that shouldn’t be important to talk about. Aaaarrrrgggghhhhh! And that thing successfully tears me up and cried for hours. Yeah, I did called my father then. I made a called, and suddenly my tears just fall easily. But anyway, that’s not the point. The thing is, this crying activity makes me so so so tired after all. But I still pushing my self to study, prepare for the mid test for the next day. I was studied until 3 am. Then I went sleep. After I slept for about one hour. I felt like a tiny step, stepping on my bed. I thought I was dream. But that was woke me up. I sat on my bed, then saw a tinny little creature. I’m not sure what was that…

My eyes was straightly look at his eyes. He looked at me, I was looked at him. There’s no romantic side at all. Damn! Hahahaha. We are just looking each other. Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing. The world suddenly be quite. The way you look at me, I was so surprised when our eyes crushed on each other. I didn’t expect that we’ll meet in this way. Yeah! In this awkward situation, and actually, in the wrong time.

And I think…. Hey, since when we have a cute puppy dog in this house. He is so tinny if I’m compare him with normal size of puppy dog. I just be quite. Still connecting my mind to the real world. Tik…tok…tik…tok…. 2 minutes latter, then I realized. Hey! He’s not a puppy dog. His eyes, fur, nose, everything…. I know what he is! A mouse! M.O.U.S.E !!!! what? Mouse??????? MOUSE!!!!!!!!!! I feel like is the end of the world (sorry I’ve been ‘lebay’ again, it’s just like ‘default’ setting of my self. LOL). Damn! How come a mouse could stand on my lovely bed??? Suddenly I said: “shuuh shuuuh shuuuuuh…..!!!, huaaaa get out off my bed!!!!” And this creature run away and stayed under my bed. I could feel it. He knock my bed. It was scared me. Hoooooossssssshhhhh. Oh God, well, I think I don’t care what was happened. All I know is I gotta sleep A.S.A.P . I’m really sleepy actually. So I closed my eyes. Wait, there is something flash on my mind. Hey, wait up! Is a mouse today become so cute like that mouse? Why the mouse that I just saw was brown ? Why that mouse has a big eyes like……like…. How to say it…..like….. Hamster!!!! Hey! He’s Locky! Oh yeaaaaaah…. I didn’t realized it at all. How….how…how come????? How come he could be on my room ??? And after I realized it, I still sleepy and decided to find Locky tomorrow, when my mind is fresh and I can think clearly. Hooaaaaaheeeemmmmm……… zzzzzzzZZZZzzzzzz……..

Hey Locky, did you know, I’ve made a poem about our situation at that night, not night, I meant so so early in the morning :

“The way you look at me”

It wasn’t the first time we meet
It wasn’t a romantic time at all
You just scared me right in the eyes
If I could freezing moment in my mind,
Oh No! of course I want it happened again..

Cause there something in the way you look at me
You’re not the amazing piece
You make me believed that you were a puppy dog,
Even you make me believed that you were a MOUSE!
You make me said “hush…hush…” to you
And I knew, latter I gotta say sorry to you

The way you look at me
I think the world stop spinning
And also….
My mind was stop thinking
Sorry bro, I didn’t realized
But, if I knew it was you….
You still scare me,
Cause your face still like a MOUSE
Can’t catch you, can’t touch you
I just can’t….